Well I have been struggling a lot with motivation for a couple of years now. I mentioned it at the beginning of 2011 and I’m still very much in that place. In past two years I can safely say that I have given up running, cycling and Aikido. For a long time I’d fooled myself into thinking that I was taking a break but no, I’ve given it up. I’ve found lots of nothing to fill my time with and am making all the excuses I used to make before I started exercising.
I’m now probably bigger than I have ever been. If you read back at what I’ve achieved over the years this a million miles away from where I was. Whenever I try to exercise I find it frustrating. I don’t have the fitness and stamina I had and focus on that. When I was starting I could see tiny improvements which would spur me on, this doesn’t work for me now.
I’m a true believer in being responsible for yourself and so I’m not going to just sit back and make excuses for myself. It’s more than time stop giving up and try it again. It’s clear from my last experiment that I need more than fun to motivate and require more structure. I’ve entered a pool sprint triathlon and so have a target to aim for. It should be varied training and so more fun than just one discipline.
For now let’s just see how it goes. Hopefully this is the first step towards getting me back on track.